Why am I the one you want when I have finally decided to leave? Why am I only beautiful when you feel threaten I may move on? Why am I worth it only when you fear I am moving on? Why do you want to go on adventures only when I have given up? It is easy to say that maybe it is just you, and I need someone better. However, you are not the only you there is. You are not just one person. Every single man that has come into life treats me the same. I give and give emotionally only to be blocked off. I don’t care about material possessions. I just wish I was worth it all the time, not just on your conditions. I want to be told I am beautiful, even when you do not feel threatened. I want to have deep emotional conversations, not just when you worry, I will turn to another shoulder. I want this to be the norm, not a gift. I do not want to have to pull away to feel like I am worth anything to you.
Why?
